Jizzournal.

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 19:48:13 GMT

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 18:18:20 GMT

i didnt feel good.
and didnt want to be at ga today
so i came home from school.
now im bored
:(

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 05:30:09 GMT

im so tired
i dont even want to type about my day
but just
make sure i will do it tomorrow

nicoles here tonight.
i ordered stuff tonight
i went to see hostel today, wasnt good.
but i had dejavu
cause like i had a dream that josh and steven called me and told me to go to the mall
and today i went to the mall and steven was there
and we went to the movies to see "glory road" and it seemed lame,
so me, dianne, megan, steven, and brian left and went in hostel and saw kaylie, erica, austin, nicole, fatima, and nat and watched that then i walked outside and saw ashleymccall and so yea, she made me smile and such
then me dianne and megan went to belks and went upstairs to get food.
and then we left
and i came home
and then sat ehre for a little bit
then nicole came here.

tomorrow, i was suppost to go and get new shoes
but my dad wants to go and ride motorcycles and stuff
so i told him he was allowed too
so i think ill just do homework, clean/rearrange my room, and watch movies?

so ill probably just sleep most of the day away and sit around
but still
♥
kind of sucks how we have to go to school for 5 days straight this week.
but the pageant is saturday
so good luck to everyone :]

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 16:42:28 GMT

so im at school
and im bored.
but im still in the best of moods.

ahh.
i love it
a lot a lot a lot.

who wants to hang out tonight?
♥

HOLLA!

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 03:09:35 GMT

I've been happy
thats all you need to know.
♥

no really, all smiles, more than most of the time.
i like this feeling, a lot.
and i love how i have been this way since like november.
and how nothing can stop me from being this.
although, im still waiting for that breakdown.

i just cant help, but smile.
when i finally find someone/something that makes me feel this way,
and that is sweet, and that is like what i want...
im extatic.

tomorrows friday.
im hanging out with dianne, movies.
taytanks.

just seriously.
MISTYS STOKED FOR NO REASON-
write this down.
♥

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 03:51:52 GMT

so yea
idk.

tomorrow = nothing, out for dinner perhaps, hopefully.
friday = diannes, movies, anything else.
saturday= jax with dianne, then home, either having a cook out thing here or at morgans.
sunday = dk
monday = dk
tuesday= half day then at 5 going back to school for a bball cause we play camden :]

..so sunday i might still be in camden, but if you want to hang out or something on sunday or monday, let me knowwwww.
asjkldasd.
umm.
so this year already sucks.. but im going to try and make it as best as i can?
..hmm dunno really..
im bad at that.
but i can atleast try.

i have to do my science fair project and have everything done by the 20th.
wish me luck.
perhaps thats what ill do sunday.
ajslkdad. GOOD IDEA>
okay.
probably not, but still.

byeeee

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 01:11:39 GMT

im at diannes:)
andddddddddddd
we're watching true life
and we have been for a while.
haent done anything today, but its okay.

tomorrow:
-dads picking me up in the morning
-going to walmart
-going to books a million
-going to see my new cousin?
-then idk, home probably to work on school project, WOO HOO!
exciting huh?

...
i dont know.
breakdown coming on perhaps?
...scary

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 05:11:26 GMT

i really have nothing to say.
other than im never tired until i get to school
and my schedule sucks :-/ but i have a class with dianne now.
and hopefully this semester goes by as fast as first did.
idk why, but next year ill have 2 months into the school year and then ill be driving.

im craving coffee and bonefish.
so um, i think im gonna get my dad to take me there like sunday? or something.
idkkk.
also, daddy hasnt said anything to me about my cell phone yet, so that either means, he doesnt care, i had the least amount of overage charges, or he hasnt gotten it yet, which means, he'll get it tomorrow, which is actually today since its 12:09am.
whatever.

i wish i could sleep?
but i cant.
hopefully tomorrows crunnkkkk
meaning, after school.
i might have a doctors appt to go over my results for my MRI and EEG.
askd;ls :-|
um im writing about pointless stuff
and i wish i had a life.
but i dont
so im sorry.

ALSO.
i want a boyfriend.
maybe i should just stop wanting one though?
..clearly, theres no one in brunswick for me.
or im just an ugly fat bitch, like ive thought all along.

Mon, 26 Dec 2005 05:08:49 GMT

so um christmas was good.
megan is here now.
its kind of like a tradition for her to stay here the night of christmas and then the next day we go shopping.
so thats whats going down :]

um.
right now
im kind of bored, usually when im with megan, we both are talking on the phone to our "kids" until like 3-5 in the morning.
but lately, i havent had a "kid" :[ this kind of saddens me. but whatever, really.

ASJLKDASD.
kay.
hope everyone had fun and got what they wanted,
even though christmas should be about that shit,
but everyone knows it is.

Sat, 24 Dec 2005 07:28:31 GMT

its christmas eve,
justins 16.
im bored.
i listen to country music too much lately, who cares though?

ohh my sister got me the new eminem cd, it was a good purchase, its more so of the greatest hits but its got most of the good new songs on it, im like addicted to that as well.

i baby sat tonight, that was cool i guess? got me out of the house and i made a little bit of cash.
to bad i never sleep anymore, feels only right to do that.
sicne i got 4 hours of sleep last night? well idk what to call it als tnight or yesterday morning or what.
5:30am-9am, now its 2:30am the next day and i havent took evne the slightest nap and ive done more physical shit than ever?
whcih is sad since like ive done nothing.

ohNEWYEARSRESOLUTIONTIME:
ajsdas I HAVE TO MANY TO PUT ON LJ.
but you'll see the changes, i promise :]

Merry Christmas You Guys!

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 05:25:19 GMT

does it not feel like Christmas to anyone else other than me?

and is anyone else as bored as i am?

also:
im going to get my hair done soon, cut and dyed, how should i do it?
ANY SUGGESTIONS? comment on here or Instant Message me with them.. pleaseeee-
lord knows i need them

um-
is it bad that i think this break is gonna suck..
including christmas and stuff?
asjdlkasd.

im just bored, i dont even have anything to say with this post.
ugh

Sun, 18 Dec 2005 21:45:38 GMT

the half days were good.
friday was good, even though i dont think we did anything but chill
saturday was good, went and saw that movie, "the family stone" or w/e, or "the stone family" i really dont feel like looking at the movie stub, but it was the best movie ive watched since like a lot like love, and it made me cry more than the notebook did. so i am encouraging you to go and see it, and take tissue if you're a softy.

today my dad picked me and nicole up this morning from diannes.
then we went to breakfast w/ nicoles mom and nephew.
then afterwards they went there way and we went ours.
came back to the house made a list of things we needed for the house and what we needed to get people and then we were off to town.
...shooppppppeedddd for the last time i thought. got home around like 1 something i suppose, dont really know.
then um put clothes up that had been thrown around my room, then my mom called and was on her way to come and get me to take me back into town to get my dad something for xmas.
so then i rode back into town and got him something.
now im back at home, REALLY REALLY wanting to clean my room, but not having the like energy too?
..even though i have nothing else to do other than like wrap 293380912380912 presents and stuff.

i feel like cooking japanese food.
i have a doctors appt at 3:30 on wednesday, im taking my E.E.G, and after that, i'll get my results for both that and my MRI i took last tuesday, im kind of scared, but i dont think i have anything to worry about.

carries coming home friday and caseys coming up in the wee hours christmas morning. at like 3 or 4. :-/
i cant wait to see them, honestly, i miss them living here.
and i hope that i can go to jax on the 30th and then stay there until the 1st or 2nd.
either way, im bored and freezing and have nothing else to say except megan bought me a low cut shirt, and i love it
and yesterday i didnt look like my usual self, cause i was pretty. :-/

Wed, 14 Dec 2005 03:07:05 GMT

so today, was just blah.
i got my wakeup call.
took a shower
got ready for school
my dad ended up taking me.
then i went to school-
yeah, school is school.
um. then i left at 2:15 to go to the doctor, but my appt wasnt until 3.
i got to go back around 3:20, took my MRI. really it wasnt as bad as i expected it to be. it was quite refreshing really.
got to listen to music and lay down with my feet propped up for about 45 min in a well heated, white dome thing.
...nice?. im thinking so.
anyways. i get home. and my dad has to get ready to go to a "christmas party" on the island.
so he leaves me.
then i sit and talk to everyone online, and on the phone, and my house phone has went dead 3 times now.
my sister called me and told me she fell while skiing and her knee is messed up, this puts a dwelling over my night. i hope she's okay.
my dad called and said he probably wont be home until around 11. so i mean, thats cool.
im staying with my mom tomorrow night, so i wont be online much.. also, idk.

...im changing, again.
haha.
:)
tonights good.
andrew called.
too pre-occupied to write anymore.

Sat, 10 Dec 2005 20:54:46 GMT

so idk if im gonna be able to leave on half day one of the days anymore
cause like.
i might not make it to 6th period on tuesday
and if coach veal isnt there monday for me to be able to beg that nigga to not mark me absent after i tell him the situation...
then ima have to sit at shcool :(
OHMYGOD!

i have to take an MRI at 10:45
and 6th period starts at 12:15..
so i dont even know..
asjklasd.
BLAHHHHH i need to bathe and then wrap more presents
so holla.

Fri, 09 Dec 2005 03:15:34 GMT

kay so.
idk.
today was bad
but now im hyper?

..hm
whatever.

i guess the day gets better after i get my nachos bell grande.
fuck. i love them so much.
FAT KID POST.
WHATTTTUP.

Wed, 07 Dec 2005 12:26:47 GMT

today is aaron carters 18th birthday.
im skipping 1-6th period.
so that i can finish my biology paper.
my dad is the best right now.
i love him.
for letting me do this.
mmhm.
so yea.
i need to be getting ready to go to his work.
BUT LIKE.
:-/ i just would rather update.

..lame.
ohwell.

:)

right now
im listening to aaron c, thiking about stuff.
BLAH I NEED THE RAP ON SO I CAN HAVE A GOOODDD DAY.

Wed, 07 Dec 2005 04:57:03 GMT

dear eljay,
tyler hawkins said she would cry if i died soon.
and she doesnt cry much.
she had heart
for like a minute.
had to write it down.
kay so.
hopefully me passing out, shaking, and blacking out isnt serious, but if it is, atleast id die knowing that she cared.

Tyler 8834: i hope you dont have liek something serious
Tyler 8834: jsut to let you know if you died i woudl deffintly cry
Tyler 8834: for days
apathy in boldx: yea same here
Tyler 8834: and i dont cry
apathy in boldx: awe, :-)
apathy in boldx: that was touching..
Tyler 8834: i know
Tyler 8834: i felt liek being sweet for a minute
Tyler 8834: you should write this down
apathy in boldx: haha i would if i had time.
apathy in boldx: but im too busy writing shit about tomatoes

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 04:35:27 GMT

..i must say-
i was very productive today.

still have to finish my science fair and spanish project, but knocked a lot of it out of the way.
also.
i feel free again, like nothing is holding me back.
although the cell phone bill will be coming shortly, and that scurrrs me.

..eek, hmmm edwin mccain friday, im stoked.
hopefully my dad can get those VIP passes.
i love how my dad has connections.

went shopping today for the sisters.
ordered me a new jacket, but it wont be hear til like the 20th.
found out, my dad is planning on buying my car for me :)
ordered diannes present tonight.
going to finish the rest this week one night

im fat,
so im changing that.
me and dianne are working out once a week at my place.
yea once a week, but we're gonna watch our calories.

other than WEDNESDAY IS AARON CARTERS BDAY SO WE'RE GONNA HAVE CAKE AND STUFF. :)

Sat, 03 Dec 2005 20:38:03 GMT

supp folk?!
ugh, so i just want you to know,i misss you, i misss you sooo.
...NOT!
i love being hyper&happy.
but thats what friends or fo.
not no livejournal.
but hey, peoplez gotz to letz duhz worldz knowz howz thingz goez rightz hoez?
..hahahaha, i see i laugh at my house,a nd dontc are if i dont have a life.
and how megan reads over my shoulder, yea thats incredible.
you wish you had a megan that reads over your shoulder.
but you cant have one, cause you dont have an annoying ringing sound in your ear like i do right now.
AHH, what is it... 0123190-2319-32190-3./
oh, um, i think im making a new eljay soon. jsut cause i think my name on this is lame.
and yeahhh i think we're gonna go watch a movie at fo sumfin, but who knows.
im stayin hurr again, and i plan to turn gangsta.
its my new years revolution, im happier that way.
PEACE

Fri, 02 Dec 2005 02:01:06 GMT

let it be known.
if i havent messed something up yet, its bound to happen.

seriously.
i realize a lot, and its usually at the worst of times.

and im getting sick.
but ya know, lord forbid me have a life when my immune system is down in the dumps.
sometimes i cant stand my dad.

this week has been full of homework, finals are coming up soon, i have a project due tomorrow that i havent done anythinb but backgrounds and animation on, i have a 5 page research paper due monday on a project i havent finished, and then tuesday i have a spanish family tree project due and i dont have the materials yet. seriously, the teachers need to slack off.

& i never know how to make anyone happy, so maybe i should stop trying so hard to make them happy and begin working on myself first.. bet it will never happen, but its worth the time of thought right?

Sat, 26 Nov 2005 19:58:21 GMT

crush time. :)

ohoh.
diannes over at megans now.
she left
and then came back, only cause she just cant get enough of me..

so nowww..
me megan nicole and her are going up to the mall to watch a movie, harry potter i think.
whoknows.?!@?! i sure donntttt.

uhh.
we're trying to dress megan
so i gotsstttta bounnce.
HOLLAAAfoAdolllaa

Fri, 25 Nov 2005 19:34:07 GMT

after being bored for like half the day.

im finally gonna have something to do.
cause
my niggaz fred and credle are comin ova to chill.
its on now

LETSTURNOFFTHELIGHTTTTSSSSS

Fri, 25 Nov 2005 16:22:34 GMT

this is me dying of boredom right now.

BLAHBLAHBLAHHHHHH.

Wed, 23 Nov 2005 03:09:50 GMT

it feels like friday- so i keep thinking degrassi is going to come on.
clearly, thats not happening.

i have nothing planned for all week/weekend.
probably better that way.

&& im watching the AMA's just cause.
THATS TIGHT RIGHT?

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 23:07:13 GMT

goals:

-read atleast 1 book a month
-bring all grades up, and STOP LETTING THEM DROP
-get a job
-lose weight
-be happy
-find someone who cares about me
-go christmas shopping :)

today, was an okay day.
i suppose.